Yesterday, we had our consult. Dr. T was very nice, but I am not sure he
totally understood how afraid I have been, and how brave I have tried to
be. I broke down in his office when I
talked about how afraid I am that the embryo wouldn’t survive the thaw, and how
I need to feel like I did my best to have a plan B. He was concerned that the cost would be
excessive, but J and I have reviewed the costs, and can swing it. We can make the cost work, and while it is
more than I had wanted to pay, it is a cost we can cover. We start on Saturday with Round 2..t-minus 2.5 days and counting...
J is very tied to the idea of a girl, or as he
calls it, Pigtails. I saw a little more
insight in to why yesterday too. I think
he wants to get to experience the side of sitting there and just watching his
child instead of having to be the ever present coach, dad, mentor, etc. And I don’t blame him. I want him to get to have leisurely time with
his child, not always structured. He
said he would feel guilty if it were a boy and he didn’t coach and do all he
has done for his boys. I get that. I hope I can give him a girl. But I also know we will love and support a
boy too, and he will never question if we love him any less.
Today, I got the call about my meds. They are so much cheaper this time
around. I have some left over, so I didn’t
have to order as much, and Dr. T’s office gave me some of the Follistim that
they had available. That is a huge
help. The nurses there are so nice, and
I want to get to do something nice for all of them. I am thinking I may make a bunch of cookies
or cupcakes the weekend before I start my next round and take them up there for
my first appointment. They have just
been super awesome, and I think it would be a nice thank you. We will see if I can swing that before I
leave. J
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